Fear! The word is so intimidating and uncomfortable. But I truly believe it can be a driving force in change and communication. This word came up in our open conversations recently. As we are getting closer to our departure date, the fear is setting in like no other. The questions: are we doing the right thing, are we making the right decisions, are we abandoning our children?
These are all real fears for us. Chad fears his role as supporter of our family. Will he be able to find work when the time comes? We both fear the thought that we are abandoning our children and that brings great guilt, sorrow and fear! Have I made all the plans that I can to set us up for success? Will we be ok?
The answer is yes and no to all of it. As I said in an earlier post the most dangerous place to be is in “our comfort zone” we are starting to feel all of that uncomfortableness and fear of stepping way outside of it. However I know with the grace of god, our hard work, our consistent communication and support of each other and our family that we will be just fine. Our story is entering book 2 or 3 or whatever number it is. It is a crazy new twist, but it is our story and we are going to be ok. That fear is gonna drive us and push us to be better, to demand more of our lives, to show up and to lead by example. Too many times in life we love to preach but never walk the walk. So we are walking the walk, making changes when changes need to be made and embracing that fear!
